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Soo yea

2004-05-17T13:39:48Z

Like I said in my last entry, I am horrible with keeping up with this damn thing. I always forget and I am never online anymore, I have no time. But I'm going to try and update often, if possible. On Thursday I went with Mike, my boss, to another Hollywood Video in D.C. to help them do inventory, all in all there were like 25 of us helping out. All you do is scan every last video in the whole damn store, its not a lot of fun. We were there til about 3 in the morning, then we all went to IHOP for breakfast. I got home at about 5:30 and I slept all day til I went to work at 6. Saturday was Daves prom. I got up at 10 and I went to the gym, came home and showered, got all my stuff together and went to get my hair done at 3. After that I went to Daves house and we just chilled there til we went to dinner at 6:30. Once that was over we went to his prom, at Martins East. We waited in line to get our pictures done, went to say hey to some of his friends, then left. LOL we stayed less then an hour. When we left we got some alcohol and a hotel room and spent the rest of the night........having fun. It was cool though and I enjoyed it. We did the whole prom thing last year with my friends so he didnt care what we did this year. I gotta go, I work in 20 minutes and I gotta change, I'll write more later.

Ok so yea.......

2004-04-12T20:56:22Z

I am not very good with keeping this thing updated. But then again I am never online anymore. I'm to busy and I have so much other things to do. Anyways I'll re-cap the past few days. Saturday I work from 5:30 til 9:30, a short shift, for once. Then after Robb and I drove up to Mystic Piercing and I got my labret pierced, again. It's a little different this time though. It's a vertical labret and I must admit, it looks damn hot. Anyways I got home and went to bed around one. Then my Dad woke me up at 5:30 because we were going to eat breakfast Easter morning at the firehouse since my dad had to work. So my mom, Jimmy and I went to the firehouse to eat our traditional breakfast with the guys and it was fun. We got home at like 8 and my mom and I were mad bored, we had nothing to do. I went uo to Dave's around 11 or so and stayed with him til 4:30. It felt so good to see him. Then we left his house and went to my aunts around 5 and we stayed there until 8 or so. All in all my Easter was good and I was just happy to be with Dave. Its a pain to split the holidays with each others family but as long as I see him, I'm happy. I stole this survery from Jes and now I want to fill it out. I'm bored and I'm off again, and tommorrow, so I am taking full advantage of doing nothing.

==THE DAY YOU MET==
Your mood before seeing him: As I was driving to his house to meet him I was mad nervous, like shaking and stuff. I didn't know what to do with myself.
Who introduced you: Ummm he introduced me to him
Where you first saw him: March 27th 2003 at his house
What you noticed first: Holy shit I have never seen anyone sexier
What they noticed first: He thought the same exact thing
Your first impression of him: I thought that he had the longest, most gorgeous eyelashes, as well as a sexy body and face.....oh yea and that he was nice, lol
Their first impression of you: Hot
First thing he said in your presence: Hmm....I made fun of him because he gave me the wrong directions and he tried to tell me he didn't, even though I had them written down in front of me
Kind of person you thought they were: Sweet, kind, polite, sexy
From 1-10 [10 being highest likelihood], how much of a chance you thought you had with him? Maybe a 5 or so

==RELATIONSHIP FIRSTS==
First Hand-holding [where took place / who initiated it / rating 1-10]: Hmm...the next night we went to his brothers house and he held my hand when we walking up to his apartment, he initiated it because I was nervous and it was def. a 10
First hug [where took place / who initiated it / rating 1-10]: The first time I saw him, we were standing out front of his house and I was cold, so he pulled me into a big hug and didn't let go, then he kissed me for the first time, it felt amazing and was beyond a 10

==THE MOST [BLANK] THING YOU AND YOUR PARTNER HAVE EVER DONE==
Romantic: When he got down on his knees and asked me to marry him
Kinky: I think there is a lot to put there and it is things no one needs to know about
Sweet: One of the sweetest things he did was the day after my surgery, he came down for New Years Eve and he brought me a basket of stuff from Mary Kay, some lotion, perfume, and body wash, and it was such a sweet gesture, he bought it to make me feel better because that had been my first surgery
Life-altering: When I realized he was my soul mate and that I wanted to marry him
Immature: The dumb, pointless fights we get into, for no reason
Mature: Letting shit go and moving oj

==WHO IS MORE [BLANK] IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP==
Horny: Both of us
Romantic: Me maybe cause I show it more, but him as well cause he can just look at me and say I'm beautiful and it makes me melt every damn time
Sensitive: Me
Shy: Me
Attractive: Dave
Intelligent: Both in our own ways
Spiritual: I'd have to say him
Humorous: Me because I'm dumb and have weird humor in which anything can make me laugh and Dave will laugh right along with me...or at me, lol
Messy: David
Confused: Me

==COMMENT ON THE FOLLOWING FEATURES ABOUT YOUR PARTNER==
Eyes: Hot
Nose: Beautiful
Lips: Yumm
Ears: Sexy
Jawline: Ohh my cant even describe.....instead imagine jaw dropping
Hair: Soft and sexy
Hands: They fit perfectly into mine and thats all I care about
Arms/elbows: Holy shit so hot they make me melt, I love being wrapped up in his arms and his muscles...once again jaw dropping
Tummy: Fucking gorgeous
Bewbies / pecs: Fucking gorgeous, once again
Butt: So damn hot
Legs: They are sexy soccer player legs.......yum
Feet: Pretty

==WHAT [BLANK] MAKES YOU THINK OF YOUR PARTNER==
Song: Any love song.....especially OUR song
Movie: Phonebooth....it was the first we saw together
Food: Fruit....cause I always want it when I am around him
Drink: OJ
Household Appliance: Umm does a cell phone count? HAHA
Book: Dont remember what its called but he read to me over the phone one night, so sweet
Season: All 4 of them, we've been through them all but more so summer
Type of Tree: Hmmm???
Animal: DOGS
Flower: Lilies

==WHICH [BLANK] OF YOUR PARTNER'S DO YOU LIKE BEST==
Article of Clothing: His boxers
Jewelry Item: His ring and necklace that he wears every day
Favorite Band: Disturbed
Friend: Umm Mike

==DO YOU [BLANK] IN YOUR PARTNER'S PRESENCE?==
Fart: Fuck yea, he makes fun of me all the time, but I feel comfortable around him so who cares
Burp: Sure do
Cry: Nope
Sleep: I try but I'd rather watch him
Eat: Yea

Ok so thats it. That survery is fun. Makes you think of that special someone in your life.

msd1rected @ 2004-03-29T20:26:00

2004-03-30T01:25:59Z

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Hmmm....

2004-03-12T15:59:31Z

So my first day at Hollywood was Monday. It was a lot of fun actually, I like the job a lot. Best thing about it, I get free movies. So I've been watching lots of movies and I love it! I worked Tuesday, Wednesday at the catering company and Thursday at Hollywood. Today is my first day off, and I couldn't be happier. Since my foot surgery was only 2 months ago my first is still healing so being on my feet for 8 hours straight is pretty painful. After work I go home and I don't even want to move because my body aches so bad. It's all good though I need to get use to it, because they wont be easy on me in boot camp, so I know I need to suck it up. I think I'm pretty ready for boot camp, finally. I wasn't ready last June when I was suppose to leave. I was to young and didn't really know who I was or what I wanted in life. But now I think I have a better idea of both. I'm not going to see Dave tonight which kinda makes me mad, I haven't seen him in a week and I miss him. I dont feel complete unless he is with me and I just want to see him and hold him and kiss him. But the good news is that Dan is coming home from college tonight, so I will be able to hang out with him while he's home. YEA!! I gotta go, I'm going to the gym and running errands and to work at the catering company for a little while.

msd1rected @ 2004-03-06T14:53:00

2004-03-06T20:09:53Z

So the past few days have been pretty good. On Thursday I went to Hollywood Video to fill out a bunch of papers and to watch some video, I start Monday. Hmm after that I went shopping with a friend of mine and just hung out with my mom since my dad was working. Yesterday I went to the gym and then went to Daves around 4. We went to this big playground and had a lot of fun. He pushed me on the swings :). After that we went to his brother Joes house. Joe and his girlfriend and Dave and I went to the batting cages for awhile, and then Joe and Christine went home to make dinner and Dave and I picked up some stuff for them. After dinner we kinda just chilled, not doing much of anything. All in all it was a pretty nice day. Things feel a lot better between Dave and I. It was getting a little rough but I think we figured out what we needed to do to make everything better and were doing it. I feel more in love with him then ever and it feels great. I wanted everything to be how it use to, when we first started dating, and now it kinda feels like thats happening. Going to the playground was great, we just acted like little kids and had a lot of fun. We sat on the swings just talking and it made me realize why I love him so damn much. March 27th is our one year anniversary and I cant wait. One year, wow. Thats a record for me. I have never been with anyone that long. So my longest relationship will be my last, and thats ok with me. I gotta go now, I'm off to meet a friend.

Heres a little poem Mollie and I wrote during the big snow storm last year, I just found it and thought I'd share it with you all. It's kind of dumb so don't laugh. Just remember we were sick and tired of being stranded in our houses.

Pretzels by Mollie and Kimmy

Pretzels should rule everyones life,
Like the Queen rules England.
They are so salty and yummy,
So brown and delicious.
Pretzels are yummy,
They taste so good and are so warm,
They fill up my tummy.
Pretzels are hot and they turn me on,
I'm addicted to them and I just want to make love to whoever invented them.
There are fat ones, thin ones,
It doesn't matter which one I eat.
They will always be the love of my life,
Don't even try to compete.
Rocking the stores and everyone's stomach,
Pretzels will take over,
Over powering the government.

msd1rected @ 2004-03-04T12:55:00

2004-03-04T18:13:47Z

So yesterday was a good day. I got up, went to the gym, came home and helped my mom paint her bathroom, took a shower and went to Dave's. Never have I been so happy to see him. As soon as I saw him I knew everything was going to be ok. I didn't want to stop hugging him and kissing him, I just didn't want to let go. Anyway, we did go to the movies and believe it or not, we saw The Passion of Christ. I dont know why I wanted to see it, but I did. I am not religious, not in the least, I believe in God and that is as far as I go. But does is a lot more religious then I am. He goes to church every Sunday and he believes and thinks a lot more then I do. We often get into little conversations about it because I really dont understand anything and I am always asking him questions and stuff. But yea I enjoyed the movie a lot. The whole thing was in Arabic or something so you had to read sub-titles. I thought that was going to get annoying but it didn't. Let me tell you what, that was so most graphic and gory movies I have ever seen. I do not mind blood, guts, whatever. But this...oh my. There were many times I had to turn my head because it was so sickening to see what was going on. Well I have to go, I'm off to the gym and then over to Hollywood video to fill out paper work because I got a job there. YEA!

Why do I....

2004-03-02T02:51:41Z

Even bother writing in this damn thing? Yea I have only written 5 times but no one has yet to comment, and I dont think anyone reads it. But I guess I am still going to continue to write in this because I need to get my feelings out somehow. I have so much built up inside of me, I need to get it all out. Eventually.

Ok so....

2004-03-01T00:49:51Z

My life is shaky. Nothing is stable. Not my job, my relationship, my friends, nothing. I need actual friends for them to be shaky so please if your reading this and you want to be my friend, let me know. I miss my old friends so guys if your reading this....now you know. I miss Mollie, Katie, Lynn, Tina, Chelsea. I miss how perfect my life use to seem, to me at least. I miss feeling loved and needed by my friends. I miss going out every day and night, just doing nothing except hanging out. And I miss all our good times together and our inside jokes. God I just miss who I use to be. And I let it all change because of a boy. I'm still with Dave and we are still engaged. But I never should of let all my friends go because of him. That was the biggest mistake I have ever made in my entire life. When I knew things were getting worse between my friends and I it was like I didn't even care because I had him. I didn't bother to try to fix them or to save our friendships. I was so in love, blind to everything else around me. I am such a fool, such an idoit. But now all I can do is try to fix things now and hope for the best. I hope that maybe someday my friends can forgive me and maybe eventually we can become friends again. I havent even felt whole, or like myself in months because of this. I dont have any fun in my life anymore. I need to get my life into order. I need to be the strong person that I use to be. I cannot let my life revolve around Dave any longer. Its ruining my life and I dont even know who I am anymore. I need a new job because the one I have now sucks. It is so slow that I haven't been working at all, either has my mom, or basically anyone else there. I have a job interview tomorrow though, so wish me luck. I hope I get the job. And after I get the job, I am going to work on my friends. Old and new. After that.. hmm what else do I need to do? I need to do more so I am not at home as much. I need to go to some more concerts because I hardly go anymore, I miss it. I need to prepare myself for the army and boot camp, more so then I already do. Even though I am not sure what else I need to do, I already go to the gym and work out every day. Plus I need to take more photos. Photography is my passion and I need to enjoy it more. I also think I am going to volunteer at the Humane Society, so I can be around the things I love most, animals. I dont know what else to do but I do know I just need to be myself again. I need to be Kimmy....not Kimmy and Dave.

msd1rected @ 2004-02-28T21:31:00

2004-02-29T02:32:24Z

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Self:	Umm
Name?:	Kimmy
Age?:	18
Bithdate?:	Sept. 10th 1985
Zodiac sign?:	Virgo
Height?:	5'3
Weight?:	119
Hair color?:	Brown
Natural or dyed? If dyed natural color?:	Right now, dyed, dark brown, usually light brown
Is your hair straight, curly, or wavy?:	Straight
What is your hair length?:	A little longer then my shoulder
Are your finger nails long or short?:	in the middle
Do you bite your nails?:	no
Do you wear nail polish?:	no
Paint your toe nails?:	sometimes
Family
Mom's name?:	Karen
Dad's name?:	Mike
Out of your parents who do you look like the most?:	Truthfully........both
Do you have any siblings? If so their names?:	Nope
Are you the oldest, youngest or somewhere in the middle? Skip if only child:
Are your grandparents still living?:	A few
If yes to the above do you get along with them?:	I get along with my dads mom, and I got along great with my moms parents and I cannot stand my dads father
Out of the members of your family who do you get along with best?:	My mom
Out of the members of the your family who do you like the least?:	My dads father
Which state does your family reside?:	Maryland mostly
Has your family ever lived in any other state?:	yes
If so which state(s)?:	CA, NC and I dont know, plenty of other places
Opinions
What are your thoughts on politics?:	I agree with some, disagree with others
What arre your views on religion?:	I dont have many, it basically ends on me believing there is a higher being
Do you automatically dislike some one who believes differently than you?:	no i like it
What are your view on pagans?:	Whatever floats your boat but I dont believe in it
What are your views on christians?:	Once again, whatever floats your boat
What are your views on nature?:	I love it, nature is gorgeous
When is it okay to enforce the death penalty?:	All the time, your there for a reason so you need to pay for what you did
Do you believe in abortion? Reasons?:	No not at all! 100% against it
Is respect given or earned?:	Earned
What are your views on life?:	Sometimes it sucks, sometimes it doesnt, but I am sure glad I'm alive and living my life
What are your views on love?:	It exists because if it didnt, I wouldnt be in love and engaged to the most amazing guy I have ever met
Are you for or against the war on Iraq.:	Well I joined the army, but that doesnt mean I am for it, I am only for parts of it, and parts of our reason for being there. but in the end I want everything to work out
Fears
Are you afraid of spiders?:	No
Are you afraid of heights?:	No
Are you afraid of cats?:	No
Are you afraid of dogs?:	Hell no
Are you afraid of frogs?:	no
Are you afraid of lizzards?:	no
Are you afraid snakes?:	no
Do you have any fears that were not mentioned? If so what.:	Umm I dont like being in small places, I hate when fire is in my face
Random questions
Favorite color?:	blue
Favorite food?:	Basically any and all fruit and seafood and pretzels!
Favorite past time?:	being with all my old friends
Out of the people you know who annoys you the most?:	Hmm dont know
Do you feel lost or with out a purpose most of the time?:	No
Do you like your job or school?:	Yea, well kinda
Are you doing what you want with your life?:	Somewhat, I'm living it...but I wish I were out of boot camp, working to be a vet, married and have my own place...but it'll happen within a year so I'm close
Does anyone try to control you? If so who.:	Nope, not now and not ever
Do you wish you could be someone else.:	Sometimes

The self survey brought to you by BZOINK!

Yeah......

2004-02-29T01:07:14Z

It's been awhile since I last wrote, I kinda forgot. Anyways life has been a big roller-coaster lately. Just ups and downs and ups and downs. Never one for more then a day or two. I hate it, cant stand it at all. Yesterday was a good day. It was mine and Dave's 11th month anniversary. I got up there and we first went to the Humane Society because last Sunday Dave found a bassett hound and my parents and I took him in because we already had one and my mom loves bassett hounds. So anyways I had to go in and fill out a paper, even though it turns out they already filled one out. Then we went to look at all the dogs and I fell in love with each and every one of them. I had to leave before I started to cry because I felt so bad and I wish I could take everyone home with me. After the Humane Society we went to dinner at Red Lobster, and let me tell you what, it was good. I love seafood so much, I was in Heaven. Thats why I love going there. At 8 we went to the movies to see Dirty Dancing Havana Nights. I kinda forced Dave to go because it's a chick flick. In the end he ended up enjoying it a lot. I think he only liked it so much because the movie was hot, I think he was turned on. I know I was. And the main character, I dont know his name, oh my was he pretty gorgeous. He's Cuban, tan, kind of long hair, a hot accent, and on top of all that, he could fucking dance. Lets see after that I left his house like 10 or so to come home. I was suppose to go see Dave again tonight but we got into a fight and he thought he was going to be busy, then he wasn't. Now here I am bored out of my mind on a fucking Saturday night. I have nothing to do, no one to talk to. Earlier today was nice though. I got up and dressed and I was out of the house by 10:15. I went to this huge cemetery near by to take some pictures. I was in heaven. Whenever I start to take pictures I go into this trance that can't be broken. I am more happy at that time, then I am any other time, with a few exceptions. I love photography, the way it makes me feel, just everything about it. Having a passion in life is amazing, because it makes me feel so alive and....needed, in a way. But yea, as I was saying, tonight sucks. And I am in a pretty bad mood and just so fucking bored. AHHHH! Ok I'm done now.

Blah

2004-02-18T01:48:35Z

I am having trouble getting this damn thing started, so I have yet to tell anyone. Why am I writing this then, I do not know but I promise soon I'll get everything up and ready.

Weeeee

2004-02-16T02:21:26Z

I just started my own live journal. I decided that I wanted to be cool like everyone else, so here it is, I hope you all like it. Right now I am going to work on what it looks like and all that so I'll write more later.